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It’s All My Fault
Dear Depression, This past week, you have not let me out of your sight. You have been stuck to me like glue. Everywhere I turn, there you are. Why? Haven’t we spent enough time together? Haven’t I given you a great big chunk of my life? What more do you want from me? The doctor …
Slacking Off
Getting closer to being eighteen, an adult, finally. That’s all I could think about when I was a kid. “When I’m eighteen, I’m gonna….”, yeah, big plans, big dreams but that’s all that they were. I was struggling with everyday life. I thought going to school all day and working all night would make it …
My How To Cope List
Well, the list just got bigger. Not only am I cutting, self harming, smoking weed, isolating myself and drinking alcohol at school. Now I’m smoking cigarettes. There was a designated area where we could smoke our cigarettes in school and I was smoking pretty heavily. I’m all messed up, yet nobody knew it. I was …
Hiding in Plain Sight
Eventually things started to calm down as far as the devil worshiping goes. They were finally realizing that there was no real truth to what they had heard or what they had assumed based on their judgment of what I listened to, what I wore and how I always liked being alone. I tried doing …
The Outsider
I didn’t hear much more about the distant biological family, let alone hear from any of them. It just became out of sight, out of mind for me. I started working the second I was able to get my work permit. I was tired of not having nice things or things that I really wanted …
Moving In
Did it. I moved in with mom and it took a little adjusting but there was no turning back. I missed my younger bio-sib and it felt strange sleeping in this new place. Still didn’t have my own room, had to share with one of the half-sibs. I was already in high school and it …
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