About Me

Hi there, I go by the name; Blue Insomniak because I suffer from depression and insomnia.  I just wanted to introduce myself to you and explain a little bit about my blogs. I’ve had and still have a lot of tragedy in my life and I know I’m not the only one.  I just tend to try and hide behind a smile as I try to deal with it on my own, all alone.  In doing so, I have found that I pretty much isolate myself from family and friends.  One thing that has always helped me, is writing.  I can sit for hours and just write whatever is on my mind, especially poems and personal letters.  I think as time goes on, maybe I will have built up enough courage to post them on my page for you all to read.  In the mean time, I feel like starting this blog will open up a whole new world for me.  It will allow me to get to know those of you who are going through similar situations in which we can share our stories with each other.  It will also be like an outlet for me, a canvas if you will, where I can put my “Art” on display.  I know not everybody will take to my blog and that’s okay.  I’m just hoping to use this as a door to open new opportunities and to invite you all to take a journey into my world to explore the mind of this depressed insomniac.  I get about 2 to 3 hours of sleep in a 24 hour period (if I’m lucky), some times it will be a couple of days with no sleep,  so most of my blogs will be written in the late night and early A.M.  When the other half of the world is sleeping.  I look forward to sharing with you and hearing from you as well.  Thank you for taking the time.  

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  1. Shery Alexander Heinis

    Thank you for following my blog! You’re quite artistic from what I’ve observed here, and I like the title you’ve chosen for your blog. I find writing creates the space and language for what we all, as fellow humans experience. I hope this journey opens up a bright, new path for you.

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  2. Anonymous

    Thank you for your kind words. I look forward to reading more of your blog. I have found that writing has helped release a lot of what is building inside. I’m sure if I would have waited any longer I would probably have exploded by now. Thanks again.

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  3. Thanks for following me. Writing has also been a great help to me. When I’m writing, when I’m in that other world I created, the weight falls off and I can fly. Feel free to stop by and chat anytime. Hope you can reach some equilibrium with your sleeping.

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    • Hi and thank you. I also get lost in my writing as well. It helps me escape my reality. But it only lasts so long because the real world doesn’t stop.

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      • True. I wish you better times.

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      • Thank you, that’s so nice of you to say, I wish nothing but greatness for you. 😊

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  4. Sleeping only few hours a night would be very terible. I could not imagine how that will affect other activities the rest of the day. Thank you for sharing.

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    • Honestly, I’m so used to it that it doesn’t affect the daily process. I get my little one ready for and to school, pick the little one up and take care of the household and all the in between stuff. Sometimes I even wonder how the heck I do it. But I know that I have to keep going no matter what. For my family’s sake. Thank you for reading.

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      • I am glad to hear that you can go on for the rest of the day ok. Sometimes, I am wondering how much sleep one needs. I understand that can depend on individual.

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      • Well, take me for example, 1-1 1/2 hours of sleep and can still function even when all I want to do is shut down. That just isn’t good for anybody. Our body needs to rest, it’s during sleep when our cells regenerate and heal. Who knows what’s going on with me.

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  5. butchcountry67

    I too suffer from depression , I used to go through bouts of insomnia but haven’t in a few years as some of the meds I take knock me right out. I am rather anti social in life and have to force myself to be around others so writing a blog is my way of connecting with the world and meeting a very diverse group of people, I thrive on diversity and love learning from all the different points of view and beliefs.
    I am happy you have decided to follow my blog , I look forward to reading yours and getting to know you better.

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    • Sounds like we have a lot in common. I also have issues being around people and tend to isolate myself which is why I started my blog. Just wanted to put myself out there, without having to “put myself out there”. Thank you for reading as well. 😊

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  6. Really sympathise with your problems with insomnia. I too have suffered with this off and on in my life. I think it has improved since I started writing, and practising tai chi! Oh, and having children has helped in an odd sort of way, sleepless nights of course to begin with, but I don’t know where I would be without my two daughters.

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    • I have been dealing with this for years now and I also have two kids as well but that hasn’t helped me much in the sleep department. I run on about two hours of sleep most nights, if I’m lucky. But I have to keep going for my family. If i can find sleep I’ll take it as long as it doesn’t take away from what needs to be done. I hope it will improve because I don’t know how much longer I can do this. Glad yours has improved because it is a terrible thing to go through. Thank you for reading, commenting and following. I really appreciate it.

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  7. wow! not much I can say to all that…I can feel your loneliness and almost feel your panic…but this blog will not only bring you friends, fellow writer friends, but will also be a release for you. I wish you the best, and whether you want me to or not, I will pray for you and your kids. And for the not sleeping, I take Z-quil almost every nite, it helps immensely and it’s supposed to be non habit forming…although like I said I take it quite a lot…but for me it’s because I can’t shut my damn brain off, adhd, and all… but it’s cheaper than prescriptions, and even if you feel a bit groggy in the am, you’ll start to feel better…because you finally get the rem sleep you need. For your kids sake alone, I would say try it… the worst that can happen is you don’t steep….with kids though, you need it so much, to have patience, to really BE there for them, not just going through the motions…etc. The one thing I would give you if I could is Hope, with the anxiety of panic attacks, always there waiting to take over, I would also suggest meditation. I know it sounds hokey, but it only takes 5 minutes each morning of your life, and the peace you would feel would soon help with the attacks. Confronting the anxiety is the worst, so don’t, instead look for peace from inside you, where your spirit lives, and bring it to life… teach it to take control. Just sit quietly however you want, in bed, wherever, and think to yourself, “I am full of peace, I am full of love, I am beautiful, I am created with love,” etc., and soon you will feel it. I kid you not! just try it a few times… you’ll be amazed. take care, and soon I hope to see your blog name changed to Blue Skies… 🙂

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    • Thank you for your kind words. I have tried the zzzquils and I even wrote a few posts on the matter. They would knock me out but I wouldn’t stay asleep and It just made me feel more tired throughout my day. Like you, I can not turn my brain off either. It would be nice to have an on/off switch but no such luck. I have been functioning quite well with the couple of hours of sleep I do get (when I’m lucky of course). It’s just a combination of depression, anxiety, panic attacks, phobias and life that refuses to let me sleep. I am thankful for people like you that I have met on this blog so far. It has helped immensely and the support from you all does give me hope. I appreciate the prayers and well wishes. Thank you so very much. I wish you nothing but the best as well. Thanks again.

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  8. Thank you for following my blog. Writing about trauma and sharing it on my blog has brought a bit of freedom from it. I hope you find this is true for you.

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    • I am finding some comfort since starting this blog and finding and reading blogs such as yours has connected me to you all in one way or another. Thank you for sharing.

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  9. thank you so much for stopping by my blog and following me! I look forward to reading more of your honest and authentic writing!

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  10. Thank you so much for following me on Cold. I don’t sleep much either and have found that I do some of my best thinking at night now. It can actually be a very peaceful time for me – although I’m still struggling with how I feel in the morning 🙂 Good luck and blessings.

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    • It’s my pleasure. I don’t think I have a particilar time of day or night that I do my best thinking. It’s just random, it sort of just happens. My mind is non stop twenty four, seven. Which is the reason for my insomnia. I am looking forward to reading more of your blog. Thank you for the warm welcome.

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  11. Thank you for following my blog. I popped over here to check out yours and feel we may be kindred spirits. I too hold stuff inside — I’m the one who cheers everybody else up — tears of the clown and all of that rot.

    Writing is the best pain reliever I’ve ever found. This piece, an old one of mine, helped free me from a whole lot of it: http://fiftyfourandahalf.com/2011/12/02/both-sides-now/

    I look forward to getting to know you!

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    • Hello there and thank you as well for following. I thought your about page was great. I know what you mean about cheering up everybody else. I have the same problem, always making sure everybody else is happy. Writing has been a great way for me to speak without saying a word. I am definitely looking forward to reading more and getting to know you as well. Thanks again.

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  12. Joy

    Thanks for the follow blue – I run towards insomnia too but it mostly results from anxiety – depression makes me want to do the opposite…writing is a great outlet for me as well. Look forward to checking out your blog!

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    • My pleasure. My insomnia is a result of depression and anxiety as well. That is why I started this blog and try to follow those with similar situations. I’m looking forward to reading more of your blog.

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  13. Cool blog, thanks for following!

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  14. I’m sorry for your sleep challenges. My mother has the same challenge. I don’t know how anyone can function with so little sleep.
    May you find relief. Thanks for following my blog. blessings, Brad

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    • Oh my gosh! Wow!! I’m honored. Thank you so much. Ummm, I’m still pretty new to this. So, I am going to read the rules again and hope I do this right. Forgive me if I somehow screw it up, as I have a tendency to do just that. Thank you again. 😃

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  15. Thank you for following Storyteller. — Ray

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  16. Thanks for stopping by my blog and for following. I’ll be following you as well. Glad to connect with you and your cats…

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    • Thank you for the warm welcome and for following. I appreciate it. 😊

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  17. I’ve nominated your blog for an award. I love reading your posts, and I know that people that follow my blog would love it as well. Please don’t feel obligated to participate!
    http://weight2lose2013.wordpress.com/2014/11/17/i-type-therefore-i-am/

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    • Oh my!! I’m honored and super thrilled. Thank you so very much. I really appreciate it. 😊

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  18. Another Leibster is here for you BlueInsomniac. Just cannot help it. 🙂

    Please find the link here.
    https://journeyofmythoughts.wordpress.com/2015/01/26/leibster-award/

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  19. Anxious Mom

    Hello, I’ve nominated you for The Daydreamer Award. Should you choose to accept it, you can find out the details here: https://thatanxiousmom.wordpress.com/2015/03/09/the-day-dreamer-award/

    Best,
    AM

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    • Wow!! I’m honored. That is very sweet of you. Thank you so much, I really appreciate it.

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  20. Kurani Marsters

    Hey I was reading through my blog and saw your comments and thought I’d say hi and see how you’re doing 🙂

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