So it seems as though the nights are getting longer. As I sit or lay in absolute darkness, hoping and wishing I’ll fall asleep soon with no luck. It just feels like the nights seems to last longer than I remember. I can’t help but grab my phone off the nightstand in what seems like every hour to check the time, but in reality it’s more like every ten minutes. I try asking you politely to go away so I could sleep but you don’t and so I start to get a little upset and then I ask you more firmly and you still don’t listen. Then I get to the point where I start pinching myself or digging my nails into my arms or hands until it hurts so bad that I finally let go, just so I won’t think about you or not being able to sleep. I’d probably do a lot more, but there’s only so much you can do in the dark without waking your children or spouse. I know my way of coping or avoiding probably isn’t ideal to most people, but it’s better than what is actually going on in my mind and thoughts. Yes, it’s the sleep deprivation talking. I just need rest. Please let me rest insomnia.