Wants And Needs

Now that the year is up, I went back to work. It felt so good. Not that I didn’t enjoy my time with my baby, I was just happy to be working. My parents helped a lot with babysitting and I was really thankful for that. My dad spoiled this kid rotten. I mean, anything he (it’s a boy) wanted my dad would get it, on top of everything I already got him. We’re talking spoiled to the second power. It made me feel good knowing that he wasn’t deprived of the things he wanted as opposed to the things he needed. Of course, I made sure all the needs were taken care of first and then the wants. It’s everything I could have ever hoped for, for myself as a child. Thinking back at all the times I wanted something so badly, only to be told “NO”. It was an awful feeling. Especially when the others would get brand new toys and I’d sit there and watch them play. I can tell you that my older bio-sib, always got new toys and I would go to her (yes, the older bio-sib is a female) (I’m slowly revealing details, and soon enough you’ll know everything). house and I would ask her if we could play with her toys and she would tell me no because she didn’t want them to get dirty, or no because I might break them. Can you believe that?! I never got to play with her toys. But, the second I would get something on a rare occasion, I was more than happy to share with her. Only she wouldn’t really play with me because I liked boy things. My sister was really stingy with me, on top of being mean. I told you in a previous post how she would get really angry when they would give me her old clothes. She hated giving any of her stuff to me. And that is exactly why I didn’t hold back when my son wanted something. I didn’t want him to ever feel that kind of emotional pain.

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