About To Explode
It’s so crazy to me how one person can have such dark secrets and hold them in for most of their life. I say most, because at some point, these secrets can consume your every being and suck in your soul till you just can’t take it any more and decide to end it yourself. I myself know that feeling all to well. Yes, I have even attempted on a few occasions and still to this day have contemplated the unforgivable. In my case, I just feel empty, no matter how full my life is now, I still feel a nothingness. I don’t know how to describe it, I mean, I love my family to death and wouldn’t trade them for the world. I’m talking about my spouse, kids and mom. They are my rocks if you will. They are what keeps me going, yet I still feel this way. Time does not heal all wounds, especially emotional wounds. It is a heavy burden to have to carry this with you your whole life. There is just no escaping them. I know they say talking about it will set you free in a sense, but, NO, it won’t, it doesn’t work that way, not for everything, at least not for me. Some things yes. The little bit that I have posted so far on this blog and meeting so many amazing people here and receiving and reading your comments has been a great help and release, and I appreciate you all more than you’ll ever know. My brain is literally on overload. It can explode at any given time. Hopefully continuous posting will relieve some of that pressure build up.