Existence

Once again I’m sitting here with the tv on and not even watching it. I’m staring right it and I couldn’t even tell you what’s on. My mind is wandering as usual and I decided to do a little research online and upon doing so, I came across this depression test and thought I’d humor myself. I already know the answer. I was just curious to see the results. The test I took was;

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And then this is the message I got after I completed the test;

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If my doctor can’t fix me with all the drugs in the world, who can? I know I can’t, I tried for years to deal with it on my own and that didn’t work out in my favor not even a little bit. I was at a really low point in my life and was really contemplating ending it all once again, like I have so many times before, and this last time was when I decided I better get some professional help ASAP. That’s when I called my doctor and have been working with this doctor for several years now and I don’t feel any better. I’m not faulting the doctor in anyway, it’s just me, I know that and that’s why I’m wondering if taking these drugs is even worth the side affects being that they’re not even helping the cause. I think I feel more lost than before. I’m just existing in a world that doesn’t know I exist.

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  1. You exist, you exist, you exist- never doubt that. You are important.

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    • So nice of you to say, just hard for me to believe. I appreciate your kind words. Thank you so much. It does mean a lot to me. 😌

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      • I think going through what you have gone through does make it hard to believe. BUT every word is true.

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      • You’re too kind. Thank you.

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