Dying To Sleep
So my insomnia is really kicking my butt. Even though I am getting about two hours of sleep most nights, I am still functional throughout the day. Only problem is, I feel so exhausted that I could just collapse where I stand except my mind won’t let me. It’s a tug of war, and neither side can win. So far every drug or combination of drugs that my Doctor has prescribed has made matters worse. A couple of them would knock me out within thirty minutes, but I’d be wide awake an hour or two later but still feeling groggy from the medication. I didn’t like the way that made me feel. Another one took hours before I finally knocked out, by that time it was already the start of a new day. The last one didn’t knock me out at all but had me dozing off throughout the day. That was the worst because I’d be in the middle of something and would stop to sit down because I was feeling so drowsy. Next thing I know it’s like twenty minutes later, I didn’t even realize I dozed off like that. Definitely did not like that one at all. I stopped taking them and have just gone back to dealing with it on my own until we can find something that will actually work and will keep me asleep for at least four plus hours. I’m still searching online for other things to try besides drugs, I know there has to be something. There just has to be. Otherwise, I’ll sleep when I die.