Be A Better Parent
I thought, when I have kids of my own one day, I’m never going to treat them the way I was treated. I was going to do the opposite. I want my kids to be able to come and talk to me about anything and everything even if it made me a little bit uncomfortable, I wanted them to know they could always come to me. I was also going to make sure that my kids had everything they needed before everything they wanted. I didn’t want them wearing hand me downs or wearing jacked up shoes for like a year. No way!! That was so humiliating for me growing up and it always made me feel like I wasn’t worthy of nice, new things. It was like, for being me, this is what I get. I vowed to be a better parent than the ones I somewhat had and even better than my guardians (the grand folks, aunt & uncle). I wasn’t planning on having kids any time soon, I’m just saying. I knew that it was a great way to think, but in reality I knew it would probably be a little more complicated than that. I mean, speaking for myself, I had so many secrets that to this day have never surfaced. These secrets have consumed me my whole life. They still do and there are so many times I’ve wanted to shout them out from the top of my lungs just to be heard and maybe even understood. So I know that there will be secrets my kids will even keep from me, no matter how much they trust me. I could only hope that they will never be as dark as mine.