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Still thinking about finding the other siblings. Can’t seem to get that thought outta my head. It’s just bugging me. It’s actually more like irritating and annoying. I’ve been trying to fall asleep but like any other late night my insomnia just won’t ease up on me. So, as I lay here in the dark with nothing but the light from my cell phone to illuminate the room, I keep wondering if I should just type in the donors last name and see what I find or who I find for that matter. But, as I reach for the lap top, hesitation kicks in. Then fear starts to surface for I am afraid of what will present itself. What if I find them, will I message them? What would I even begin to say at the start of my sentence? “Hi, you don’t know me but we’re related”. Uh yeah, NO!!! That sounds terrible. What if they just happen to have the same last name but are of no relation whatsoever? I’d feel like an idiot! I’m so torn, I wish I just had the courage to say screw it, and make contact, and if they don’t wanna connect then at least I tried and that will give me a little peace of mind. Right?? Awe man, I don’t know. I’m going crazy over here.

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