My little one brought me a progress report with straight A+. I am so proud and relieved at the same time that my depression and sleep deprivation has not affected my little one in such a negative outcome. Even though My mind is not completely here and I don’t get the sleep I need to function at a 100% capacity level, I think I’ve been doing a pretty good job of getting my little one to school on time every day and helping with homework while still maintaining the house and all the other responsibilities that come with marriage, parenthood, and just life in general. Even though most days I just want to stay curled up in bed with a pillow over my face. Now that I think about it, I don’t know how I’m doing it. I feel so weak yet appear to be strong. I feel so empty, yet my plate is full, I feel so lost, yet I am at home, I feel so depressed, yet I still smile. How?? Why??