It’s sucks being me. Depressed, moody, isolated, lonely, sleep deprived due to insomnia. Anxiety attacks I have no control over. Extremely claustrophobic, It takes a lot of courage to ride an elevator especially with other people and I’m deathly afraid of deep waters, got on a boat once in San Francisco, oh my goodness, I thought I was going to die. I absolutely will not swim in the ocean because I don’t want to be fish food. I Avoid all rides at any amusement park for fear that something mechanically wrong will happen the second I decide to ride. I can’t even enjoy the merry-go-round because I don’t like the feeling of being dizzy. I’m Terrified of any type of Ferris wheel ride because I am also afraid of heights and I’m scared to get stuck way at the top. I see it happen all the time since they have to take the riders out one car/box at a time. I can’t even stand on a chair without my knees shaking. I sure as hell don’t know how I’ve made it this far in life with all these phobias that pretty much rule my life. Maybe it is all in my head but I’m not sure. I guess it is what it is.