One of the down falls to having depression and insomnia is isolating yourself. The depression keeps me from wanting to be around people while the insomnia has me so exhausted that even if I wanted to be out, I don’t have the energy to do so. I’m here in my room doing absolutely nothing, while the spouse is out with family. As much as I would like to hang out and be social, it’s just not who I am anymore. I feel like a stranger amongst family and friends. No connection, nothing in common. I can’t even hold a decent conversation because I’m afraid to make eye contact for fear that they might see the pain and suffering behind the smile. So it’s the same old excuse, I’m not feeling well or I have a terrible migraine. At some point they’ll have to start to wonder right? Or am I just that good at isolating myself?